The Harvestin' Begins

"Live Life with Purpose in Every Step"

My Purpose Today: I am going to try and bring back an animal from the woods for my girlfriend. On purpose.

B.S. & P.S.

How embarrassing it is to be an emotional wreck. I don't not wish it upon anyone.
I'm sick of crap like that. Recently, I have been getting really down and emotional... FACT: mainly because of chemical imbalances in my body which could be avoided by exercising. I was freaking out. Then I went for a run and was fine. Hence, reasons for not taking a car anywhere.

I read some of my old revelatory notes this morning. They were pretty good. One that sticks out to me this morning:
"As a man thinks in his heart, so he is."

Sigh. You're right God. I'm not depressed. Its not the children's bread. I should not pray mentally but out of the abundance of my spirit. I should not wait to feel like doing something, but act in faith and do it. Whether it feels right or not to study in the morning, when I am trying to figure out perfect ways to worship you for 5 minutes and take up an hour and a half being distracted, I'll study.

Wisdom for the day: Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt.

That which comes out of the mouth of man defiles him. For the mouth speaks what is in the heart.

In my case, I emailed one of my teacher's about having dealt with some depression, and now that I'm over it, I feel like an idiot.

More wisdom: Steer clear of putting yourself in the position where you must apologize.

Better to remain silent and be thought foolish.

P.S. My girlfriend still makes my heart soar. I love you Erin.

Heavy Leaves and Fall Hearts

good morning. peppermint tea.
homework = sigh of grief.
beautiful world outside = sigh of relief.

I am at the point in this semester where I'm hitting a wall, but I'm not writing to complain. I may feel my circumstances are weighty, but I should just let them fall to the ground like these leaves outside. Because it brings more pleasure to hear them crunch under my feet. My perspective has come this route by way of my father's guidance. I called him last night for some encouragement, only to find he had a rough day as well. Nevertheless he insisted I explain myself, so I did. I love his advice because most of the time, I can just soak it right in because I know it lines up with something I want to be. He's the best. So I woke up this morning and felt like I wanted to talk to him. About that time my phone buzzed to let me know someone had left an email.
It read:
subject:Fall colors
I was not in the best mood last night, with news from the family, and grandmother worried about me being out of town for 3 days. I felt I shouldn't have to work this hard to make it after years of hard work. But I woke up this morning and looked out side at that glorious fall wardrobe that nature is presently wearing and said, what the heck! get up and enjoy the day no matter what kind of day your facing. This is great weather, can't wait to get outside. Hope you complete all the assignments. love Dad

What the heck is exactly what I'm thinking Dad. you make me laugh.

Here's a picture of my girlfriend. It makes me laugh too, ha.